Behind the glass. Poetry

Behind the glass

Poetry

Brian Sheldon

© Brian Sheldon, 2024

ISBN 978-5-0062-4304-0

Created with Ridero smart publishing system

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It’s like I was made

For all of you to speak.

A little misunderstood.

Slightly overshadowed by your pressure.

But do not call to leave life with me.

In my eyes you see only peace.

A patchwork to cover the way

And forget…

And I will walk on it.

In my dreams and thoughts all.

I’m in this world for myself.

***

Midnight light

My thoughts will leave my delirium.

I’ll remember our glances,

I’ll take the keys, the outfits.

I’ll decorate my head with a flower

I’ll cover my world with the ceiling.

I’ll let the wind carry me away

To give answers to the light.

I’ll hide in a dark book

And let them scream about what they can’t see.

When you’re done flipping through the pages.

You’ll understand me now

For I am alive…

***

With chapped lips,

With salty cheeks.

I’ll finish it all illegally.

There’s no truth in other people’s answers

There’s no truth.

The cold light

Envelopes the body

And sharp outlines.

«To you, hello,

As in a moment of farewell.

Close your eyes

And be silent

Your train

Waiting for you on your journey…

***

In moments of smiles she called,

And then sat sadly alone.

Waiting for a cab, counting the minutes.

I put out one by one, reliving the morning.

I was so nostalgic with the lights…

I’ve been waiting for a taxi, I’ve been counting the minutes.

I used to run and believe in miracles.

Now closing in,

I don’t seem to be alive.

Only in my own world

In peace I was,

But I let myself die.

Drops of life of despair fall,

I’ll be filled with pain

And say goodbye.

***

Whatever the pain is,

I will go through it myself.

Life’s answers.

Alone with myself I’ll scream and sob

But I won’t show it in the morning

I’ll keep a box of wounds

A box of wounds

With a fuzzy smile I’ll open all the doors,

And at night I’ll scream wildly in my bed

I’ll walk on the roof of life

And I’ll only dream of keeping myself safe

So that I don’t lose all meaning

To pick it up at the drop of a hat

I will walk in the rain again,

But this happiness is limitless.

Don’t walk away from the days of life

I have only you.

***

And that’s what we all went through all this for?

The minutes were senselessly lost

And days, hours, forgotten as if…

***

To walk and not to dissolve.

To breathe and not be forgotten.

To lose my thoughts.

With a new pain in bed.

Scraps, scraps!

Sticks poked at us.

How quickly to leave

Not to call for a ghost.

Wrapped in wires

And cry again…

There’s two of us left

Who will we meet?

Distance is meaningless.

There’s no point in being bored

***

There is no advice without a reason.

A hundred girlfriends swirled that summer.

Only you lost yourself.

No question, who am I now?!

Once again the details of life are hidden,

Everyone cried, «You’re different!

Pouring down your hot throat

The remnants of what you remember when you’re alive.

In the bulkhead, as in a play.

Braided by dreams fluttering.

sharpened all the things you loved

Only my heart has already forgotten.

***

We can’t hear each other,

We have forgotten that we are breathing.

And through the open windows

I wanted to leave.

I am broken myself,

And it won’t be brave.

I walk as if blind through life.

Under the lonely moon,

I’m always with her suffering.

By the salt water

I will open the dawns.

By the seals of the forgotten

I will only hear the advice

To leave this world

As if forgetting everything

I’ll tell the emptiness!

I miss the old me…

***

Waiting, waiting

I’ve been sketching

My answer

It’s the answer of an asshole.

The vase is broken

There’s water running down the glass

Like salted blood

All the things I didn’t burn

I’ve never experienced

The tenderness of fire

No more wind

The earth is full.

***

I told you!

That’s how I was greeted.

With two words.

Oh, Mama, what’s wrong with us now?!

Oh pain, oh heart,

The sorrow, the stones.

How can you scream

When your hand is on the bathtub

And how to hurry

When you feel

You’re already in the dark

You were talking

But not about me

***

She’s talking about love again,

You’ve forgotten your loneliness.

Aren’t you tired of saying goodbye to him?

Who are you lying to?

You were just giving yourself away.

And now,

Take your misery

I see you every day

But my thoughts

Are just a punishment

You’ll be glad

To see what you’ve kept

But he won’t remember.

Sweetheart.

You’ll be alone again.

***

And he looked on indifferently,

I only wanted to know the truth.

The powder fire is burning again,

It’s like we’re alone

And I’m the only one who sees you

And I see you off and I miss you.

And you’ve forgotten

When you loved me

I accept what I know.

But I forget everything else.

It’s time to take a step

To the winds

When you hurt me

I’ll notice.

***

I sprinkle salt on my wounds,

And I’m in tears

And I suffer

And I’m willing to kill myself.

Now I see it!

It’s all in vain

The heart will forget.

I forgive.

I’ll feel better

I let go.

***

I never took offended

Did you?

Yes!

And rose again!

And fall to pieces.

And forgave!

And I called!

I was amazed

It pains me to see

There’s another life here

And I don’t know

The word grief.

But I’ve experienced

All I can

I’ll finish myself

You make me feel like I’m alone.

***

In the fervor of the wind,

Of unbridled days

We have forgotten

Who in the world of men

Ruling over us

And with our hands clasped

We answer-

That our friend

Only fear.

***

And loyalty again

And tears of forgiveness,

Who are you gonna tell?!

I don’t believe it!

I forget the sorrow

And love

But I suffer so much!

Crucified like two wings

Scream, run!

I’m alone again.

Spreading the ashes,

The muses are gone.

Don’t wait for me.

Another fate.

***

Minute sounds

And laughter…

We’re apart

That’s all she could think about.

She couldn’t wait.

I’ll be gone!

I’m used to being alone.

***

I squeeze my lips until they bleed!

And it doesn’t hurt.

I’m inside.

I smile and write.

I don’t want to do this at all.

I trample everything around me.

When the pain goes away

And I walk away.

I pick up the pieces of myself

All the things I leave behind

I forget

I go round and round again

I can’t let go

I’ll walk away.

***

Say you love me.

Say it all without words.

Tell me we can do anything.

Tell me what love is.

Tell me I’ll live

Tell me