LIA, a virgin?
Roark was in shock.
She was the most beautiful woman he’d ever seen. Every man desired her. She’d been married for ten years. How could she be a virgin?
How was it possible that Countess Lia Villani, the woman whose beauty seduced and entranced men beyond reason, had never been bedded until now?
But there was no mistaking the physical signs. Her earlier hesitation and awkward response to his first kiss, which he had taken as evidence of her pride, were cast in a new light.
Lia was innocent. Or at least, she had been.
Until Roark had possessed her.
A surge went through his blood. As he looked at her lying on the fallen rose petals, her hazel-green eyes so clear and so deep, he felt a strange breathless rush.
The intensity of the feeling reminded him of skydiving. Flying high above the clouds in Alaska, Roark remembered opening the door of the plane. Staring into nothing but air, he’d heard a buzzing in his ears as he threw himself headfirst off the edge.
He’d fallen with the wind howling in his ears, whipping painfully against his skin in a freefall. He’d felt the dizziness and danger as the earth approached at 130 miles an hour.
The adrenaline that ripped through him was the same now.
Lia was dangerous.
More dangerous than he’d ever realized.
But knowing he was the only man who’d ever had her, fierce pride and possessiveness went through him. Dangerous or not, he could not let her go.
He was still hard inside her. He knew he should pull away. He’d never taken any woman’s virginity but knew instinctively that it had just changed them both forever. They would always be connected by this, and that scared him.
She licked her full red lips.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” he ground out.
“I don’t want you to stop,” she whispered, reaching up to stroke his cheek with a small trembling hand. Her eyes were as many shades of hazel as the rose vines and soft earth beneath them. “You make me feel warm. I want you inside me …”
He groaned aloud.
He slowly drew back and thrust again inside her, this time more deeply. The pleasure was intense for him, and he had to sharply keep himself in control. He stifled her second gasp with a fierce kiss, seducing away her fear until she melted back in his arms. Until she moaned with pleasure, tossing back her head as he pressed her against the grass. He kissed her throat, sucking on the tender flesh of her ear. Her full breasts bounced softly as he thrust into her, moving with agonizing gentleness.
Holding back like this was killing him …
She cried out, clutching her nails into his back. He heard her intake of breath, felt the building tension of her body. He thrust into her, moving his hips side-to-side against her. He stroked her skin, riding her on the soft green grass, beneath the warm sun and the sweet scent of roses.
Then he heard her harsh gasp. She arched against him with a sharp cry that never seemed to end.
At that, he lost all control. Pushing into her, he thrust just three times before his world exploded in a burst of light.
Beautiful … rare … angel.
It was like nothing he’d ever felt before. His eyes remained closed as he held himself inside her, struggling for breath. It seemed to take years before he slowly came back to earth.
When he finally looked down at Lia’s beautiful face, her eyes were still closed. Her parted lips turned up sweetly, as if she were still in heaven. He looked down at her naked body, at the full breasts and wide hips and slightly curved belly of a 1940s pin-up girl. She was so lush and impossibly desirable. He could feel himself growing hard again as he looked at her.
Then he realized something. He hadn’t used a condom.
He’d just risked getting her pregnant.
He swore beneath his breath.
Furious at himself, he pulled away from her.
Lia’s eyes opened—her luminous hazel eyes with depths that seemed to go on forever. He watched her long, dark lashes flutter against her pale skin with a blush like roses on her cheeks.
He took a deep breath.
“Are you on the Pill?”
She blinked at him. “What?”
“Are you on the Pill?”
She shook her head. “No, why would I be?”
Why indeed? A cold sweat broke out over his body. He stood up and readjusted his clothes, righting his pants over his hips.
He could hardly believe he’d been so stupid.
Lia had some power over him that he didn’t understand. How could he have acted so foolishly—as mindless as a rutting bull driven half-mad with the scent of lust.
The overwhelming force of his desire for her felt too dangerous. Too close.
He didn’t want to care about anyone ever again.
A flash went through him, the memory of red flames, white snow and a desolate black sky. The sobbing. The crash of the fire and crackle of burning timber. Then, worst of all, the silence.
He pushed the thought away. Business. He had to think of business.
He cursed himself under his breath. Damn it, he still hadn’t asked her to sell him the New York property!
“The New York property …” he muttered, then stopped.
“What about it?”
Turning his head, he said hoarsely, “How is it possible that you were a virgin? You’re a widow. Every man desires you. They say the old count died of pleasure in your bed—”
She stiffened. “That’s not true!”
“I know.” He lifted her to her feet. Her naked body was a vision before his eyes, and even now, when he should have been satiated, he couldn’t stop looking at her. “But you were married. How can you be a virgin?”
“Giovanni was good to me,” she whispered. “He was my friend.”
“But never your lover.”
“No.”
And Roark was fiercely glad. He reveled in it.
But why? Why did he care that he’d been her only lover? What difference did it make?
Still naked and dazed in the sunshine of the garden, she took a breath and licked her full red lips. She was so beautiful he ached to take her inside the castle, find a wide bed and enjoy her body again at his leisure. To take his time and show her how long pleasure could last….
Why was she having such a strange effect on him? He took a deep breath, desperate to regain control over his body and his mind. Business. Ask her about the land! he ordered himself.
But his mouth wouldn’t follow his orders. He couldn’t stop looking at her.
It was because she was naked. It had to be. Once she was covered up, he would be able to think again. Bending to pick up her discarded white dress and panties from the grass, he handed them to her.
“Why did the count marry you, if not for your body?”
Looking dazed and disoriented, she stared at him, clutching the fabric in her hands. “He married me to be kind.”
“Right,” Roark said sardonically, forcing himself to look away. It was easier to be distant when he couldn’t see her or touch her. “That’s why men get married. To be kind. I had business dealings with Count Villani once or twice. The man was ruthless.”
“He was my father’s friend.” From the corner of his eye, he saw her slip on her dress, pulling up her panties beneath. “My father’s shipping company was stolen by a heartless corporate raider, and a few months later he died of a heart attack.”
Roark looked at her sharply.
“Giovanni came to L.A. for the funeral,” she continued simply. “He saw my sister had no money to pay for her treatment. He saw my mother was mad with grief. And he tried to save us.” She shook her head as tears filled her eyes. “But it was too late for them.”
A shipping company. Los Angeles. It was all starting to sound too familiar.
The Olivia Hawthorne Park Foundation thanks you for your generous donation.
Roark hadn’t paid attention to the name before. Now, a sick feeling went through his chest. “What was your father’s name?”
“Why?”
“Humor me.”
“Alfred … Alfred Hawthorne.”
Roark swore silently.
Just as he’d feared. Her father was the same man who, ten years ago, had mortgaged himself to the teeth trying to fight Roark’s hostile takeover of his shipping company. He had heard the man had died a few months later, followed to the grave by his teenage daughter who’d had some kind of brain tumor. Then the mother committed suicide with sleeping pills.
Only their oldest daughter had lived. Amelia.
Lia.
And she’d just given him her virginity.
Roark clenched his hands. She’d only done it because she didn’t know his name. By some miracle he’d managed not to tell her. But if she knew …
Once she knew, he wouldn’t have a shot in hell of getting her to spit on him to save him from burning to death, much less getting her to sell him the New York property.
“Did you know my father?” she asked softly, looking up at him.
“No.” And in a way it was true. He’d never really known the man. He’d just taken his poorly managed company and broken it into parts, destroying the docks and selling the valuable oceanfront property in Long Beach for a brand-new condominium development.
“I wish you had. I think you would have liked each other. Both powerful men, focused on success.”
The difference being that Roark always won, while her father had been a weak failure, a third-generation heir of a company he didn’t know how to properly run.
Roark managed not to point this out to her, however.
He had to convince Lia to sell him the New York property before she found out who he was.
Walking away from her, he took some papers out of the black leather briefcase he’d left beside the garden gate. The gate creaked loudly as he closed it and returned to her. “I want you to do something for me.”
“What is it?”
“A favor.”
“A favor?” she teased, smiling. “A bigger favor than giving you my virginity?”
He gave her his most charming smile in return. “It’s a small thing, really.” He paused. “Build your park somewhere else besides New York.”
Her jaw dropped. “What?”
“Transfer your purchase rights to the property site to me. I will make it worth your while. I’ll pay you ten percent over the asking price. Call it a finder’s fee.” He spread his arms in an expansive gesture. “Build the park in Los Angeles to honor your sister. Let me build skyscrapers in New York.”
She looked up into his face, her skin the color of ash. “That’s what this was all about? That’s why you kissed me in New York? Why you followed me to Italy?”
He ground his jaw. “It wasn’t the only reason….”
She shoved his chest, pushing him away very, very hard as she looked wildly over the rose garden. “That’s why you paid a million dollars to dance with me at the charity ball.” Her eyes glittered as she raised her chin. “That was why you seduced me. Just to get the land from me?”
He was losing the deal. He could feel it slipping through his fingers.
Looking at her, he shook his head. “Of course I want the land. More than you can possibly know. I can build five skyscrapers on that property that will last hundreds of years. The biggest project I’ve ever done. It’ll be my legacy.” He took a deep breath. “But that has nothing to do with making love to you. Taking you like this was … a moment of pure insanity.” He reached for her, trying to bring her back into his arms, back under his control. “If I’d known you were a virgin …”
“You know everything about me now, don’t you?” she said bitterly. “My name. My family. Where I live. And I still know almost nothing about you.” Evading his grasp, she clenched her hands into fists. “I don’t even know your name.”
If she heard his name, all was lost. “What difference does my name make? Think of the deal I’m offering you.”
She raised her chin, and her dark-hazel eyes glittered. “I want to know your name, you cold-hearted bastard.”
“I’m offering you a fortune.” He pushed the land-transfer contract into her hands. “Just look at these numbers …”
“Tell me your name!” she shouted.
And he couldn’t lie to her. His honor was more important than anything—even than the deal of a lifetime. He took a deep breath.
“My name,” he said quietly, “is Roark Navarre.”
LIA stared at him. “Roark … Navarre?”
She still remembered her father’s cry that lovely June morning, long ago. “He’s done it, Marisa. Roark Navarre has ruined us.” Lia had just graduated from high school and was still reveling in being accepted by Pepperdine, an expensive private university in Malibu she’d attend in the fall. Olivia had just started a promising experimental treatment with a new doctor. And their mother, who always switched so quickly between ecstasy and despair, had been happily painting the distant Santa Monica pier with watercolors on canvas. The California sunshine had been bright and warm against their three-story beach house.
Then her father had come home in the middle of the morning, staggering into her mother’s arms as if he’d just received a heavy blow.
“He’s done it, Marisa. Roark Navarre has ruined us.”
Roark Navarre.
Now Lia whirled on him, trembling and hot with fury. “Your name is Roark Navarre?”
“So you do know me.”
“Of course I know you. You destroyed my family!”
“It wasn’t deliberate, Lia. It was just business.”
“Business,” she spat out, tossing her head with a derisive sneer. “Just like it was for the sake of business that you seduced me?”
“Lia, I didn’t realize who you were until just now.”
“Right.” She shook her head furiously. “Why should I believe a word you say? You caused my father to lose his company—”
“He would have lost it to someone, if not to me. Hawthorne was completely inept. A typical third-generation heir bumbling his way through a business he didn’t understand.”
“How dare you!” She paced, then stopped, covering her mouth with her hands in a horrified gasp. “I let you take my virginity.”
“Yes,” he said. “Thank you. I enjoyed it very much.”
She sucked in her breath, crumpling the contract he’d given her, twisting and strangling it in her hands.
“Get out.” She threw the contract at him. It bounced off his chest and fell to the grass. “The land is going to be a park, across the street from the hospital where my sister died. I would die before I let you put skyscrapers on Olivia’s park!”
Clenching his jaw, he shook his head. “You’re making this personal. It’s business. If you don’t have any fond feelings for me, fine. Take me for every penny you can. Force me to double my offer—”
“It’s too late.” She suddenly felt the insane urge to laugh. “Before I left New York, I signed the papers that turned the land irrevocably over to the trust. I sent it by messenger. It’s been too late for hours. The property is permanently out of your reach.”
She saw something like grief and fury cross his face. She’d hurt him. She’d prevented him from having something he really, really wanted.
And she was glad. She wished she could do more. She wished she could hurt him a fraction of the way he’d hurt her.
“Because of you, my father lost every penny we had,” she whispered. “My sister had to go for months without treatment. My mother couldn’t take the anguish of losing her husband and her daughter. They all died. And it’s your fault!”
“It was your father’s fault,” he said coldly. “Your father was the failure. He was a fool. A man shouldn’t have a wife or children if he can’t even take decent care of them—”
Lia slapped him.
Looking shocked, Roark touched his cheek.
She stared up at him with hatred. “Don’t you dare call my father a failure.” She felt tears rising to her eyes, and she fought them with all her might. She would die before she would let him see her cry! “You seduced me for the sake of skyscrapers that will never, ever love you back. And you call my father a failure? You call him a fool? He loved us. He’s a better man than you will ever be.”
Roark straightened, holding his hands stiffly clenched at his sides. For several seconds their eyes locked. Lia could hear the pant of her own anguished breathing and the sound of the birds overhead, a warm breeze rattling the leafy fullness of the trees.
Then his jaw clenched.
“I’ve already had your body,” he said. “And since it’s too late to buy the land, we have nothing else to discuss. Nothing about you is interesting enough to deserve another second of my time.” His eyes were like black ice as he tossed back callously, “Let me know if there’s a baby, won’t you?”
Picking up his briefcase, he turned and left through the garden gate.
Shocked, she listened to the departing sound of his footsteps. It wasn’t until she was alone in the rose garden that Lia allowed herself to collapse into sobs. Putting her face in her hands, she fell to her knees on the soft grass and cried. For her family. For herself.
She’d just given her virginity to the man who’d destroyed her family.
Four months after that horrible day they’d lost everything, her father had died of a heart attack in the little two-bedroom Burbank apartment they’d rented after their beach house was sold for debt.
Thank God for Giovanni. Her father’s old friend had come from Italy for the funeral. He’d seen eighteen-year-old Lia trying to support her sick younger sister and a mother who was silent and half-mad with grief. The next morning he’d proposed marriage.
“Your father once saved my life in the war, when I was barely older than you. I wish I’d known about your troubles—I wish he’d told me,” he’d said with tears in his eyes. “But I can take care of you all now. Marry me, Amelia. Become my countess.”
“Marry you?” she’d gasped. As kind as Count Villani was, he was three times her age!
“In name only,” he’d clarified, his cheeks turning red. “My wife of fifty years died last year. No one will ever replace Magdalena in my heart. I’ll never ask anything from you but your company, your friendship and the chance to repay my debt to a man who’s dead. He was my friend, and I didn’t even realize his business was in trouble. Your mother is too proud to accept my help, but if she believed this was truly your choice …”
So Lia had married him, and she’d never had reason to regret it. She’d been happy with him. He’d been a good man. But her marriage ultimately hadn’t saved her sister and mother. It had been too late to pursue the experimental treatment in L.A., so they’d moved to New York where Olivia could be a patient at St. Ann’s, the best pediatric brain cancer facility in the country. But in spite of her determination and bravery, Olivia had died at fourteen. A week later their fragile mother had died from an overdose of sleeping pills. Lia still wasn’t sure whether her mother had deliberately taken her life, or just been desperate for one night’s sleep to escape the grief. She almost didn’t want to know.
If Roark hadn’t ruthlessly taken her father’s business and left him a broken-down man with oceans of debt, Alfred might have found new investors. Perhaps he would have saved the company instead of being swallowed by the stress of his failure. Olivia could have continued her experimental treatment and it might have worked.
Or maybe Olivia would have died anyway. Her treatment in California had been experimental with only a slight chance of success.
But now Lia would never know.
She only knew that if not for Roark, her whole family might still be alive. Her father. Her sister. Her mother.
Roark Navarre. His name caused a surge of hatred to tighten her hands, crushing a red rose between her fingers. A thorn drew blood on her thumb.
And as if he hadn’t done enough already, he’d deliberately taken her virginity for the sake of a business deal! Did the man have no conscience at all? Did he have no soul?
The bastard. The ruthless bastard.
With a soft curse, she sucked the blood off her thumb.
Lia went into the castle to take a shower, desperate to wash the scent of him off her skin. She tried not to remember the feeling of his naked body against hers. The hoarse whisper of his voice, “Ah, Lia. What you do to me….”
She leaned her head against the cool tiles. Standing beneath a stream of water so hot it burned her skin, she was overwhelmed with guilt and shame. She’d betrayed Giovanni’s memory in the worst possible way. Taking pleasure in Roark’s arms, she’d betrayed her whole family. She knew it was the worst moment of her whole life.
She was wrong.
Three weeks later she discovered she was pregnant.
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